ExPlOrInG mE 3:- NovembeR NighT

Here i am sleeping on the bed of the thorns,
roses covering me as im a corpse.
Waiting for the sun to show up as i await the dawn.
You know sometimes i wonder what i want out of my life.
There are times when i want everything n sometimes it just doesn't even matters
as if those things doesn't even exist.
They call me confused, may be its just that im still trying to figure out what i'm born for. What's the purpose of my birth, ma existence, my being, my living,
my waking up in the night, my staying here awake tonight.
I try not to smoke another but fall short of a second n took another drag of my 7th smoking stick, its 2a.m n i want to sleep coz i can't face no more of me but insomania prevails my life.
I wanna stop my wandering thoughts but they are vulnerable.
I wanna lead a life just like any other normal person,
but normalcy has changed its meaning for me.
I try to stub the butt of my smoke as asthama calls my life
but in vain coz death is what i seek resort in.
I mean no looser here but just a wish to set myself free, free from myself.
I wanna sleep now have to go to college tommorrow but my souls howls at the moon light, i don't want them. I wanna calm myself down but the blood rushes in their own ground.
My heart seeks forgiveness from the way i am and i wish i could help it
but it ain't in control of myself. I light up again just to become ashes by the dawn but i know it ain't that easy to die, just as all other wishes that never got fulfilled this wish to be in despair.
I try stop writing this but its not me who's making me do it.
My eyes have become sore, my fingers have become numb.
thoughts in my head run awild n i'm trying to be myself but i loose it all to the darkness in me.

ExPlOrInG mE 2 : ThE PaTh I wAlK

I live alone and i try to grow,
i walk the never ending path alone in darkness
which has been destined to me.
I loose my faith, trust, spiritualism, hope, regard on the way
that it weakens my knees.
The path that i have chosen never seems to get enough of me.
It brings along misery, deceiveness, broken trust, wounded emotions,
unspeakable guilt, unconquered quest, non ventured venues, unheard cries,
longing pain, unfulfilled dreams, never ending desires, streaming tears,
irreplaceable lose, hollow souls, stabbed heart, hidden truth, worthless sacrifice.

KnowN StrangeR

hi pps, i came up with this piece in the constitution class today... ya u ppl are right the lecture was real boring one. anyways this is how it goes:-

Why do you have to look so pretty every time.
Why its that whenever your eyes meet MINE, i can't feel nothing till that TIME.
Why its that when i see you WALKING, my heart beats stop TALKING.
Why its that when i see the innocence on your FACE, my whole being goes into different PHASE.
And when you talk n your lips MOVE, i could hear nothing but watch them GROOVE.
And whenever i see the smile on YOU, my breathe goes a million mile for YOU.
And when you laugh with all its BEAUTY, all the fairies do their DUTY.
And when there is nothing left to HEAR, just nothing left to say, i wish there could be something to make us STAY.

Tomorrow Is Another Day

Tomorrow is another day as THEY SAY.
But they never tell what tomorrow may bring to you.
The tomorrow when another leaf will fall from a TREE.
When people will DIE and they be FREE.
when a few good souls will cry in VAIN.
When my heart will get drenched in PAIN.
when my mind will go all INSANE.
And they say in time the scars will MEND.
People live people die but its only me who SURVIVES.
Living for another DAY or living just to STRAY.
Living for another HOPE or living for another WISH.
Living for a million MISS or living for yet another KISS.
Living for another SIGHT or living for another reason to FIGHT till my breaths are gone, till there is nothing left.
Don't forgive me is WHAT I SAY.

Middle Of Da Night

This peace i wrote last nyt aroun 2a.m tat's y da name "middle of the night". this is how it goes:-

I wake up in the middle of the night and i notice my girl wasn't by my side. I went to the kitchen to see her through but could not find her there too.
I went to the lawn and around the pool but could not find her nowhere.
So here i run down the street and into this Ice cream Treat. And there was she in the blue, almost lost in i don't know who.
I got loose of myself there and then but it was her ex man that she mentioned.
I scuffle and rugged him my way to heaven but she cried for him with all the pain.
That's when i realise what am i fighting for was never mine, no not at all.

Exploring mE 1

I'm not your rolling wheels, i am the highway. I'm not your carpet ride, im the sky...
Ya that's right the sky who strives to see the horizon, the sunshine, a single streak of light.
People's soul rest in peace but mine prefers chaos. I tryin talk ma way out of de darkness, but it prevails deep, deep down inside of me that my voice fade away to hell in me.
I tryin touch ma spirit but its haunted.
The devilish streak, the mourning morning, the cursed moon, the satin's shadow, all rest in me making me out of no one or may be someone.